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Blissful Sea Of Consciousness

2006-04-11T00:35:00.001-07:00

I tread on this blissful sea of consciousness.
With blind and moronic wishfulness.

The water that holds me afloat is running weak.
My resources taped out and bleak.

The waves that push me to go on
May still be the ones that hold on

And pulls me under to infinity and beyond.
This blissful sea of consciousness.

Positive thrown away into a Negitive.

2006-01-03T05:23:00.000-08:00

All around me I feel this positive energy being thrown into me.
I throw all the positive back.
Throw all of it away.
All around me this positive energy thrown into me
Is wasted.
People belive in me, yet i dont recipicate.
I dont belive in myself.

For Something Great

2005-10-17T10:34:00.000-07:00

It feels like im running on a tread mill.
Kinda like a hamster on its wheel.

Is it all futile?
Is it worth while?

But still im driven with this force that’s so wild.
Always fighting battle after battle.

What the fuck am I fighting for?
To turn the corner and find another consuming whore.

Why must I look deep and hard to find a pattern, some control, some order?
Still I fight! For something Great. Something maybe I will one day understand.

KRIEG!!!!!!

2005-08-06T05:03:00.000-07:00

Fight is all i know now.

Battle to an objective.

Objective Unbekannt :( /:)...

Thank you to those who have been so SLEFLESS

2005-07-20T04:54:00.000-07:00

Move on to other things.
Just disappearing without a trace.
That would suffice.
But id have to look twice
at the people that have shaped me and have made this place
what it is.

I appreciate what has been given to me.
The lessons learned and the memories shared.
The people who have influenced my life, I thank.

Slowly I rot away.
At my own pace.
Close myself off but am so open.
Sharing only with those who will listen
But hearing and understanding are two different.

When will an open communication evolve out of this mess I call my mind?

Can You See The Future??

2005-06-30T02:27:00.000-07:00

I now have a deeper confidence in my perceptions.
This perception is a powerful thing.

Over confident I must not become
Because, there, lurks evil in what possesses me.

A canal, through me. Limited still, these forces have prevailed.
But still I alienate myself from interaction in fear of being rejected.

How do I share this with other beings?
How do I show gratitude for what has become me and what I have become?

urs trly,
X0om

Warning: NO CONTROL BEYOND THIS POINT!

2005-06-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

I want to write. But how can I possably put all this into words.

This world is so good, soo bad. Balance.
We have been given a so called gift.
The gift of outside awareness.
The ability to see outside ourselfs.
To rationalize our actions and those of others.
To foresee possible outcomes and act in accordance.
Control.

What the FUCK is control??
If everyone has control and everyone can control...... Who controls everyone?
Common, no matter how much we think we are in control we are not. There is no such thing!
Yes, we might be able to control how much we eat, or who we date but that’s not control.
A large group of "highly influential" people might be able to control how much oil, money or people come in and out of a city, country or continent.
But really now. What kind of control is that?
No matter how much or how little control we have of the events of our lives, everyone is bound to a mutual beginning and end.

I guess its just how we get there.

No matter how much we try to rationalize, gain control or seek some kind of order the complexities go way beyond human ability. Godly? Nope, that’s a human word and a human rationalization. Really punctualtion and sepellingandreligionandeatinganddatingandbuying andsellingisjustanattempttocontrolanexsistancethatweseemtohavetojustify.....whyIdon’tknow whocaresbecauseweallareboundtoamutalbeginningandend.Theend

ALL HOPPED UP ON GOOF BALLS 'N SHIT HE IS

2005-06-01T02:50:00.000-07:00

Rent in this ROTTEN apartment is going up.
Work hours are down.
Credit Card bills? Over due.
But im not worried.
Because Numb I am.
Or is it confidence?
Mustn’t mistake the two.

2005-04-28T23:23:00.000-07:00

What is this crazy purpose we all strive to accomplish?
What is this motivating force that makes us go on?

Curse
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SIGNS

2005-04-02T21:18:00.001-08:00

“Don’t think about all those things you fear.
Just be glade to be here.”

It feels like ive lost the ability to smile.
Or not to take everything so seriously.

It feels like me along with everyone else is in for something big.
Cant explain in detail, but something big is going to happen.

Our lives will be changed dramatically.
For us, everything that we know and value will change.

Its like one day we will all wake up from a delusional reality
Into something that’s been dormant for generations.

Something neglected by so many people will come out
And sink its vengeful teeth into our hearts till we realize…

A REAL reality that we’ve all neglected is waiting for those who are ready.
“Ignorance is bliss”
Sad but true :(

TOGETHER WE MAKE NEW COLORS

2005-03-23T20:22:00.000-08:00

You see Blue...
I see Yellow...
Together we see Green...

2005-03-23T02:30:00.000-08:00

MANDLE
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Story Report For The Masses

2005-03-23T01:41:00.000-08:00

A Story For The Masses:
Where do we begin? There once was a boy who had no concept of self-awareness. He was just there to do his part in the giant scheme of things. Ate when he was hungry, slept when he was tired and struggled when he was forced to struggle. Relationships were formed with others around him, who as well, had no concept of self-awareness. Through the hands of time, this boy began to gain insight unto the world around him and most importantly unto himself. He was now able to control his destiny. Evolving into an industrialized, self titled, Human Being.

Although evolving, changing… This new insight into the world and himself, left him blind to the unseen forces that guide the future of mankind. But now this evolved human being, has to evolve and change again. Form another relationship. But both with other human beings and equally as important, the world witch also controls his destiny. To be able to survive this snowball effect that he has just created upon “himself” and his “world” He must change FAST.

Make any sense?

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2005-03-23T01:37:00.000-08:00

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HAZARDOUS... COMMING SOON

2005-03-16T01:06:00.000-08:00

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